You know i realised something today….when i walked out of the door of the school that last time , i never thought it was the end of the best time of my life , the best peoples , the best memories. Everything best came to an end when i stepped outside the gate of that School for one last time.
And the worse part is , i never realised it until 2 years after that day.
And the thing is the worst time is not here yet. The worst is about to come when i will again step out from a very splendid place called college. Yes i know i don’t like college much , but i am gonna miss this once its over. Its just like “you only value it when you lose it” kind of thing. When i look 2 years back from now , that old me was not aware that something special is ending. And that unawareness was the main reason i survived this two years , i realise that right now. But now when i finally got the road cleared out , i am afraid. I am afraid how will i be able to leave this college after two years. It is going to be so much more painful than i can ever imagine. I lost so many things after school , i lost the careless way of living which i loved , i lost the innocence of being a children , i lost the caring heart which loved someone once , i lost too many important persons whom i never thought i would lose. And i am going to go through this all again in two years.
And it makes more harder when you already know what you are going to lose in some time. It makes more harder to let it go. It makes more harder to move on. I am going to feel heartbroken exactly as i did when i left school last time but this time it will be at a much higher level. I know its stupid to mourn about this kind of pity things. Life goes on , everyone graduates , everyone leave their town , everyone lose friends , its not a big deal. Well , it is a big deal. Waking up one day and realising that i don’t have to get up and dress to go to college and bunk classes with my friends just to have a cup of tea with lots of talking and teasing , its just too much to handle. I will miss the everyday spot of the group where we wasted hundreds of hours just sitting and doing nothing.
Leaving the best part of the life is never easy for anyone. Leaving is painful.
So i will try not to shed a tear when i smile at my friends for one last time before saying fuck off to them and never coming back to that college again.